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Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
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So, out of the blue today, I thought about LJ... And I realized I hadn't thought about it in a LONG time. So long that I couldn't remember my user name or password. But thanks to LJ for being super creepy, you can get that all back. I read my last post. It seemed like forever ago. I got a new keyboard even though I fixed the old one. This one is pimpin. Actually nothing is really new. I have a shit tonne of work to do as always.
I hate my roommate. This will probably be my last post for a while if not forever.
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| Time: | 10:05 pm. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | A Tribe Called Quest - Hot 4 U. |
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I have been done for a week and 10 hours ish now. Things went pretty super awesome fantastique. Except during exam period, I spilled hot wax all over my keyboard. That was super not fun to deal with... I have it all fixed now, and everything works, except the keyboard... you have to hit it in just the right spot, which is slightly to the left of where i normally hit it. It's throwing my typing completely off.
My presentation that I was super worried about ended up going really well and the program worked! It's like a really simple paint program. Which everyone says is a shitty program anyways, but you try programming it!! We ended up spending a buttload of time on it.
I'm really super relaxed right now, and I'm supposed to be packing. I want to watch a movie or something. Mostly because I have no idea where to start. And by that I mean I feel like I should get the boxes from the basement but I'm almost 100% sure there will be spiders in there. I've had enough of the GD spiders and I can't wait until I get into the new place where there will be a lot less spiders.
I really should start doing something. I just talked for .. 4 hours? I would definitely not call it a waste, but... I think we should have been packing at the same time. Also.. bread pudding is delicious! I eat too much.
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Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
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I still have classes and some people have already written exams!! At other schools I mean, but holy poop!!
I'm so stressed out. I have a presentation friday and the program doesn't work. Then exams are monday, wednesday, thursday, thursday-friday take home, saturday and monday.
We've spent over 50 hours on this stupid project. I just dont have the will to program anymore.
But as a sad side note... once I'm done programming this... I never will program again. Unless I teach programming.
I also didn't realize that I had the last class with Keliher last Wednesday... he's on sabbatical next year. That was sad. It's weird that this is the end already.
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Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
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| Subject: | fabulous. |
| Time: | 11:34 am. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. | | Music: | Big Bad Voodoo Daddy - Go Daddy-O. |
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So ... it's been a while since I posted, and I figured I should since I know that everyone is like... I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT BRENNA'S LIFE!!!
Well, here's the low down since the last post. The mono is gone!! It actually has been for a while, however, I am still tired as eff all the time, but for unrelated reasons... ie... not getting to sleep at a normal hour. Not even because of work! I have a lot of work this semester but it all seems tedious... I don't feel like I'm learning anything. But six courses a semester is bitchin! Well, it just worked out that my courses are all pretty easy and that my sixth course I honestly dont have to do anything for... I dont even need to study! Oh finite math...
I went to New York for spring break. It was pretty good. The people I went with weren't huge on going to musicals so we didnt' go to any. I was a little disappointed about that. But it was fun trying to find your way around and stuff. My feet hurt pretty bad from all the walking and what not. The subways were fun. We went to the empire state building... I really liked that. We went to the Guggenheim. I did not care for that and couldn't wait to get out. Well.. there was one part that was cool and it was how they used explosives to make pictures... and one of the artists was currently in the middle of one of their displays... The Met and the MoNH were defintiely awesome. I wish we had more time for those... you could honestly spend a whole day there!! We also got the stereotypical hot dog at some vender. That was pretty good too! And there was this really awesome deli beside our hotel that had like... a buffet thing where you could take what you wanted for 6.98$/lb. Saw a basketball game... pretty sweet. Shopping on Canal street was really awesome, and Darryl and I found the real China town... I was really excited about that. We never made it to little Italy though, but we did make it to the brooklyn bridge. It was during the day though and it probably would have been better at night, but it was a fun adventure. I liked that we did what we wanted and we had a rough itinerary we made ourselves but we didnt have to stick to it and that we had as much time as we wanted where we wanted and we could sleep when we wanted to. It was just so much better than a trip where it's like, get up at this time, and we're doing this and you have this much time. It was nice.
I was really pumped about my purchases though. I got two necklaces for 5$ and then one for 10$. The one for 10$ was actually really nice, so I didn't mind paying what they asked for... especially since I had just gotten 2 for 5$. I also got some realllllly cute shoes in Maine. I'm excited for summer to wear them.
After new york, on the way home, Rory picked me up in Maine on Saturday night and we went to his house. We went to Dysarts... I got a Dysarts T-shirt. Pretty dang excellent. I finally feel cool:D It was a pretty fun time.
Since then... I've pretty much just been working. The new smash bros came out sunday morning and Rory went and got it at 8:30. He meant to get there at 7:30 but he forgot about the time change. Regardless, I was the first to play with him. I played last night, and he showed me how to do things... instead of just mashing the controller like I used to do.
We finished our swing routine and we just have a couple practices until the shows (Tuesday and Thursday next week!! @ Live Bait). I'm pretty excited for them. My parents are even coming up to watch. And to take me out for supper:D
As a side note, things have been going excellently lately. It's nice.
Annnnnnd now I'm going to nap before lunch and hopefully get work done today. Maybe some studying.
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Saturday, January 26th, 2008
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I'm not doing anything tonight and I'm loving it!!
Well I'll be doing work. It's weird though because this is the weekend that I've never been invited to so many things.
I have mono again. I relapsed. Special! My throat swelled to epic proportions this time. Like, they were touching hte hangy ball thing. I was scared for a while that when I went to sleep that I would stop breathing and that I wouldn't wake up. Like, it was a serious concern. Now they're just kind of swollen. There's nothing I can do about it.
On a different note, I am officially going to New York! I couldn't be more excited. All my money has been paid. Now I just need money to spend slash eat there.
I also have three of my four essays done for my scholarship. I'm pretty excited about that. I have to write one though about something I would want to research in computer science. If you have any ideas at all I would be really appreciative because I can't think of anything. It does'nt have to be directly about computer science. For example, last summer, my research project was about getting females at a young age into computer science. But it says I can't use that as an example because I already talked about it.
I'm really excited to continue doing nothing tonight. I'm getting stressed out about work though. I'm going to do some easy assignments and make myself feel better before I have to work on the hard one tomorrow.
Also, I am really into Incubus (Morning view/ make yourself) and Wintersleep lately.
My side where my spleen is hurts. Ihope it's just a subconscious thing and that it's not really mono related. I think I'll go get it checked out on Tuesday maybe.
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Sunday, January 13th, 2008
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I just went back and read my old LJ posts from the nights before and after my first night at mount a. Hahaha I still remember exactly how I felt, exactly how my room looked to me on the first night, and exactly how much all I wanted to do was scream and run away. I didn't even say everything that was on my mind, not that I normally do, but I still remember it all. If only I knew then what I knew now. Also. I was incredibly emo.
I used to hate change so much, but now, I feel like that's all I want. As much as I like being in a groove, I've realized how the transition from high school to university was and how much better everything got.
I really hate truro. Sometimes I go back and I don't realize it, but getting away, it's like a hugh weight has been lifted.
Also, I'm back to loving math and hot chocolate. I was a little iffy before christmas.
My roommates and I went out last night and now they're all out again tonight. I just don't know how they do it. I feel so old. And next weekend is ski epic. I can't freakin' wait. I'm sooooo excited. And New York has been confirmed. Yes that's right ladies and gentlemen, I'm going to be doing something other than vegging out at home on Spring Break. I'm really pumped. Actually, I really just hope that the stupid girl got my deposit. I sent it to her school mail box, and I messaged her and asked her if she got it, but she still hastn' replied to me, and tonight was the deadline for deposits. I wish she was more organized.
I hung out with Rory all day today and we discussed how girls are ridiculous in their teens. And in all seriousness. They are! I remember freaking out at my parents because they said hi. And I remember times that I got irrationally angry when my parents asked me how my day way. Looking back I have no idea. I hope I never have a girl. Well I would want a girl because I know what I would want to name a girl, but I have no idea what I would want to name a boy. But that's a silly reason for wanting either of the two sexes. Maybe when I have kids there will be something out there to make girls not be stupid. Haha.
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Sunday, January 6th, 2008
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I'm finally back in Sackville. I was a little hesitant about coming back and I don' t know why. I haven't been since first year. I'm kinda stressin about this semester so that might be it, but most of my courses I think I will really enjoy.
I had a really good sleep last night. My bed in Truro is really soft and it's comfortable but I can't sleep too long on it or I get like... back pains. This bed, I can't sleep too long on it because it's too hard but I also can't go back to sleep so it prevents the back pains. The soft bed is so easy to go back to sleep on no matter how long you've slept.
Also, I got back and I was like, I'll go check the oil situation. The line that tells you how much you have is sitting on top of the empty line. Like, directly on top, no space between. I called the oil company and they said that they couldnt guarantee when it would be coming but some time this week. I called back a little later and told them how low we were and I was talking to a different person and he was almost chastising me about letting it get low and he was getting defensive but I didn't think I was saying anything to make him feel offended. But I didn't call him out on it because I want oil and I didn't want to piss him off. I turned the heat down really low. And put on long johns. And two pairs of socks. Three shirts and a hoody. I was moderately cold still. Ben has a space heater and he says we can use it. Stupid oil. I was thinking about sleeping in Rachel's room because she has the attic and it has electric heat up there, but... it's creepy up there. Oh well, we'll see how it works out. It sucks, if we really run out of oil, there's a 70$ service charge. I don't want to pay that. At all.
I'm supposed to be writing essays for this stupid scholarship I"m working on... but I havent' gotten around to it. I feel somewhat screwed. I have to do it though because I've already asked people to write reference letters, and I already finished the resume part... I can't back out now. The week hasn't started yet, but I already wish it was the weekend.
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Friday, December 14th, 2007
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So I went to swing tonight instead of studying for prob stats. Silly. I know. But prob stats is going to be easy.
BUT... there's this sweet move that it seems like only Darryl and I can do... and one of the teachers who's really good wanted me to help him learn how to do it so he could show other people. Actually that worked out well because Darryl and I couldn't figure out how to get into the move, so the teacher, being hte genius he is, figured that part out, so we were practicing it, and I joked about how Darryl drops people a lot, and he was like, whatever, I drop you because I want to, and I'll drop you again, and we laughed... but I kept practicing with the teacher and then he tried to get Sue to do it and Darryl and I to spot, but she wouldn't do it, so Darryl want to try it with the new moves to get into it... and... that went well, it was the whole flipping part. We didn't count like we normally did, so there was confusion and when I said jump, I jumped, but he didn't pull, and I realized too late so I tried to stop jumping but I was already mid flip, and I landed on my head. It hurt sooooooo bad. And I just laid there and I was in so much pain I couldn't say anything and everyone was around me and I just wanted them to go away. It was soooo awkward. And then when I finally started feeling better Darryl wouldn't dance with me and Sue told the rest of the class that they couldnt' dance with me either. I just wanted to dance...
Point of story. I have a concussion. I've never had one like this before... I've been dizzy for so long. I know you're not supposed to sleep when you have a concussion but it's getting late and I'm tired, and I don't know if the tiredness is from the concussion or not. I have a giant bump there now... like giant as in you can see the difference from the other side without looking hard. Also, I have three exams in the next 4 days. Great time for a concussion.
Also. some of my friends here are celebrating their last day of exams ness on the 19th, but I'll be home then, and I'll be in halifax during the day. I kind of almost want to come back though just for that. It sounds like fun.. video games.. alcohol.. stew.. Maybe not in that order. But I don't want to pay for a bus ride so it looks like it's not happening. Unless someone knows someone driving to mta that day... Also..
IT'S SO MOTHER EFFING HOT. WHY IS IT SO HOT. I feel like I'm sweating bullets or something. I just want to sleep.
My exam is tomorrow at 2:00pm and I've barely done anything for it. I'm not worried. I just need to finish the stupid cheat sheet.
Also, I wonder how much medicine you can mix. I was having ulcer pains so I had to take some medicine for that, but Aldous recommended I take ibuprofen so I dont wake up with a headache in the morning and such... and I also hav ea cold coming on so I want to take medicine for that so that I dont get sick during exams. I can wait to get sick when I'm home.
Also, if you haven't already. Youtube Old Gregg.
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Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
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Friday, December 7th, 2007
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I am ridiculously terrible at studying. I dont' have an exam until Wednesday and I just can't bring myself to study for any of them. But, I have one on the 12, 14, 15, and 17th, so they're all realy close together, so I really should be more efficient with this studying thing. I'm not too worried about any of them though. Well, somewhat for graph theory. She took 5% off an assignment because I drew a K4,4 graph as a contradiction, the answer, and by accident I wrote K4, which is a complete graph on 4 vertices, I know it's different, but really, i missed a comma and a four. Obviously I knew what I was doing... but 5% for that? Gosh. I'm scared she'll do the same on the test. I think that may be one of my favourite courses this semester. That or computer science.
I emailed my comp sci prof about a question I had for an assignment and he wrote back with the answer, but then asked me if i knew about this scholarship, and if I would be applying for it and when I said yes he was like, good, you should. I was like... chika chika yeah! Because this is one of those profs that doesn't really compliment anything you do or praise you. Not that he's mean or anything, he's just more or less shy.
Right now no one is home. Two of my roommates went home. The two I'm not huge fans of right now. So it worked out nicely. The others just have lives. I wish I had a life.
I went to a dinner theatre the other night. Without going into great detail, it was pretty awkward at some points, but it was all in all a good night and I was glad I went.
I'm really excited to go home and ... read Harry Potter. And Atonement. I feel like I should just rent every series that I neverwatched that everyone else watches. ie the Office, grey's, etc. I watch a show here and there and they're good, but I just never stick around to watch them. I love So You Think You Can Dance, but I definitely don't watch it on a regular basis. Maybe that's a good thing though? Maybe I'm finally get over my TV addiction?
Also, I really just want to watch movies all the time. It's weird, during the rest of the year, I don't really care, but when exams come, it's like... I want to do everything! And I always think the break is long, but it's only three weeks ish . That's not really that much time to do stuff.
Also, I want to do something for new years. Kind of. I want to do something cool. I don't think I want to drink though. And I don't want to plan it. I don't want to drive that night. I just want to go with the flow.
Also, I'm jealous of everyone who went to see Feist. Apparenty it was amazing. I wish I could have gone, but alas, I need more money. I think I'll be going skydiving though. Maybe a trip to BC, or somewhere else. Maybe just Quebec. We'll see.
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Thursday, November 8th, 2007
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So, I dropped my course from hell. So did most of the class I guess, haha. There are only three people of the original 12. I feel bad for dropping it but honestly I knew that if I didn't fail it, I would have gotten a D, there was nothing I could do to get a better mark. But now that I don't have that course, I have so little to do. I love having so little to do. It's fantastic. I can stay on top of my work. I can do things!
I'm going to bioscience trivia tonight from 7 - 9 and swing is at 9 - 10, and then to the physics society pool night? Well see about that last one. I should probably do SOME work. I've barely done any work at all since I dropped that course, I should really be getting back on top of it.
Things have been going greatly lately. And by great, I mean things couldn't get more confusing. Everytime I think it's working out just fine, something comes along and I'm like, well shit.
I'm coming home this weekend and I thought that I would be coming back early but it turns out I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and I also have to get my driver's license done again. New picture!! And this one I won't have an extreme case of wind burn from the hill! Pimpinnnnn.
I'm really excited for swing tonight! The moves are getting so much more fun. I think tonight we'll be doing flips. Probably afterwards. There is one move from So You Think You Can Dance that my partner and I are trying to perfect. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmTXwm6SrrI 1:22 seconds in if you want to watch it, bahahahhaa.
I guess I should go now.
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Saturday, October 13th, 2007
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I haven't done any work since Tuesday. Wednesday, I didn't have any work to do. I had the date instead of doing work I could have done. Thursday, I didn't do any work because I had swing. I heart swing. So much. I really look forward to it every week. haha, Pat and I have this routine already, where we've put everything we've learned so far together... anyways, we can do it really fast, and someone said to us "you guys probably don't even know what you're doing. it looks like you're makingup moves and it just happens to look good." I was like... sweet! Because we aren't making up any moves either. Friday, I didn't have classes. Well two were canceled because of APICS, and I didn't go to the other because it's just Physics... and I could get the notes from my roommate. So I didn't do anything yesterday. Well I went to Pat's. I figured I wouldn't stay there long and I would come home and get some work done... But... nope. I got home around 12 and just went to bed.
So today I'm going to work. It really sucks because it's assignment and midterm time. I should have done more work. Oh well. I'm going out tonight. First time in three weeks. I'm kind of excited. Maybe a little worried that I might speak my mind a little too much. We'll see.
I have the house to myself again. One roommate is in BC until Monday, another is in Halifax until tomorrow, one went to Truro to see his parents, and the other is at her boyfriend's place. It's pretty dang sweet. I get the house to myself alot surprisingly. I was kind of worried about that because there are so many of us, but all of them like the library. Or, well, Brian likes to stay in Dunn all day. Regardless. It's pretty dang sweet for me.
I guess I'll do work instead of procrastinating.
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Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007
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So today... I made a complete tool out of myself in front of a pretty boy. I was leaving Dunn and this guy was holding the door open for someone so I decided I would use the other door so that I wouldn't have to deal wtih someone coming in the same door at the same time, but he kept holding it, and when I finally realized he was holding it for me, I had already gotten to the other door. Too bad the other door was locked and I ran into it like it was a wall. I just put my head down, said thank you and walked through the door he had opened for me, not someone else.
But to compensate, I ran into a pretty boy I actually knew. We talked for a bit. I think I'm going to ask him on a date. I've never asked a boy on a date before.
I love my roommates. They're hilarious. Ben was trying to take a poop but Jen wanted to shower and wanted him to use the bathroom downstairs so it wouldn't be smelly. She kept hitting the door open and ruined his poo. He finally gave up, saying that he can't poo in the spotlight. So he went downstairs and wanted for her to be in the shower and then flushed the toilet. When you flush it downstairs it just turns the water cold, so not that bad. Then a few minutes later he asked if he could get his toothbrush, and instead went in and flushed the toilet, which turns the water hot, and then immediately followed by cold. Hahaha Sooo funny.
So, I'll be signing a new lease tomorrow. I'm sorry that it worked out the way it did. I wish we had discussed next year earlier. But... Whatever. I told them tonight that I am signing the lease tomorrow. I really like the place, and it's closer to campus so I don't have a crazy scary walk in the dark. I'm going to like the place. I really hope I do. I think I can get along with the people just as well as I do here. I really don't care about the other roommates, but I don't think I'll see Brian as much anymore. That sucks.
I have a test tomorrow. But then I have swing dancing! I love swing dancing with all my heart and soul. The stuff we are learning... The throws, the spins... oh gosh I heart it. And it's great because there is a perfect ratio of female to male. And there are a lot of people! Well, I hate that there are a lot because there is'nt that much room and it get's really hot, but it's cool that there are so many people and there are so many guys. I love when we switch partners because it's so much different.
Okay, I should study for this test tomorrow.
I work this weekend.
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Saturday, September 15th, 2007
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Sooo, I am no longer stresed about the living situations. Well, kind of. I really like the place I'm at now, and I guess everyone wants to stay... after I found someone to live with next year. The place next year is more expensive, and it means I probably won't be able to go to France, but it's a really nice place also and it's close to campus.
It also really sucks because I feel so conflicted now. It's like I have two groups of friends. Tonight I have a party at one place to attend for someone's birthday, and I don't really know anyone going, but I know that I would like those peope and that they're fun, but then I have my original friends and they're having a movie night, and I feel like I barely see them, and I don't want to lose them as friends.
And the guy situation sucks. One I will probably have a school girl crush on forever, one may be a really decent guy, OR may just want in my pants, and the other, one of my best friends has liked him since they met. But it's not like I'll do anything about any of them so I don't know why I care.
I signed up for swing dancing. I have three guys that I could have as partners, so I won't have to be the guy this time! I'm pretty excited about that!
I also never see anyone from residence anymore.
I also haven't done any work all weekend yet, it's almost supper time and then I'm leaving soon. I can't see much getting done.
or maybe I should stop posting useless posts to LJ and just work.
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Thursday, August 30th, 2007
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So I have nothing to do right now. Everyone is doing the Alympics, or not in Sackville, or they dont' have internet so I can't reach them. I'm really bored, and I'm kind of stressed out about certain things, and I really just want school to start.
Well, that's a double sided coin for me. I want homework, I want things to do, I want an excuse not to do things, not to go out. Everyone wants to do things and I'm just worn out. I don't feel like I had a good summer vacation because all I did was work, and I hated my job, and I came home pissed off every day.
I don't want classes to start because I feel like I'm never going to understand it... and I just remember not getting any of the math. Well, I'm just thinking of the algebra, and the computer science, and graph theory. Algebra I like, but they give crazy assignments. Computer Science, I hate, and I dont get. Graph theory will probably be my favourite course and I'll do the worst on it. Physics should be fun though. I should have majored in physics.
My roommates want my opinions about things, like where this couch shoudl go and where the other one should go. I honestly don't care. I probably won't use that space. The only place I really liked was the breakfast place, and they don't want to keep that, which is fine, but ... I dunno, everything just seems so unorganized and uncertain right now. I think I have too many roommates. If I could just get rid of two...
I'm glad I'm in a house though. I've been to other people's apartments and the neighbours all seem so loud! Even when my roommates make noise, I don't hear them. I slept through them getting ready this morning, and my bedroom is right beside the bathroom! So that's good.
I feel like I'm trying to reassure myself that I made the right choice. I know that I did... kind, but I think I won't know it until classes have started. I just really need classes to start so I can get adjusted. I think I came to early. But I needed to get out of Truro.
I put my desk together myself. I feel like a liberated woman. hahah. It was soooo heavy and it took me about two hours to finally get it flipped the right way. Well, the bottom part. The hutch went together no problem.
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My air conditioner is making the craziest sounds. I know it's not hot outside, but I can't make my room cool down enough! I feel like I'm hot flashing.
I'm almost done reading the last Harry Potter book. I'm so nerdy. It's so good though and I really want to know what happens, I mean, I've only been waiting since grade 7 pratically. I'm trying to pace myself, but I know I'll have it finished by tomorrow. I don't know how that will make me feel once it's all over. Kind of like how I feel about school/university. We've been doing it so long, but it's coming to an end soon and then what? Well, I guess the school thing is a little more....something.... than a book is. But still.
Work is driving me insane. Apparently the rules only apply to everyone except the supervisor. I've heard so many complaints. There really needs to be something done about it. I just really don't want to be the one to do it, but I know no one else will. I don't know why I care so much, I'm done in 5 weeks, never to return to that hell hole again. But... I'm tired of sitting back and hoping that it will just get better.
This couple freaked out at me today because they had to wait for their waitress to come. In all fairness, they were waiting a while, but when I noticed that their waitress hadn't been there, I told them I would go tell her to hurry, and they said thanks, and I went and told their waitress. But while on my way to my table beside them, they stopped me, raising their voices, and frankly, sounding retarded. T
The more they spoke, the more they spurred each other one. One start with how long they had been waiting, then it was you said you were getting our waitress, but she isn't here, and a lot of "I just don't understand what you are trying to tell us, why you said that our waitress is coming, and that she has yet to be seen, and we have been seated before those people over there," at which point that couple, who had their own waitress waiting on them, turned and looked at the angry couple, as if to say, shut the fuck up, you're being stupid. " I glanced over at them, and it was the manager there, who pointedly refused to acknowledge the scene two seats away. I was little disgusted, but continued to smile and said, "your waitress is right there" pointing at their waitress who was delivering drinks a few tables past the manager.
They interrupted me before I could say anything else and the man kept getting louder, saying that this was shocking, and that he was disappointed, and repeated that I had told them their waitress would be coming and that apparently she was waiting on another table, and then rounded on me, asking me why I couldn't take their order, why they had to wait for the other waitress, and how many tables would she wait on before they waited on her.
At first I didn't understand, but then I realized that they meant the manager. And I said, no no, that's not your waitress, she's over at the round table, she was just making some drinks, and she has your water ready, she's planning to come here once she's delivered them. I looked over at their waitress and she nodded, and I meanwhile, kept smiling.
The woman, I think, noticed that the entire dinning room had now gone silent and were staring because they had been shouting so loud, because she started looking slightly abashed and lowered her voice saying, oh alright, well then that's good, I just wanted to make sure that we weren't being ignored. And the man, I think he caught on, and said nothing. I continued to smile and said, I'm sorry about your delay, but I hope you enjoy your meals.
And then I walked to my table. It was just one lady, but she said in a voice loud enough for the angry table to hear, the salad was excellent, and so is the service, as it ALWAYS is. The table behind hers sniggered. Meanwhile, my manager had walked back into the kitchen, and ignored the problem entirely, without mentioning it, or acknowleding that she had just witnessed the entire ordeal.
It didn't matter though. It's not like I needed her to handle it, even though it is her responsibility to step in. The waitresses at other tables in the dinning room later told them that they thought that couple was ridiculous. Apparently the waitress who waited on them said they were fine once she got there. So I'm glad I successfully calmed them down, and I didn't freak out. The table had left before my table beside them did, and when I went to offer her dessert, she declined, but said that I had done a wonderful job keeping my cool with that couple, and that she was shocked that anyone could be like that, let alone two people in one place, and then asked me if I had to deal with people like that often. I said no, most people are generally good natured when they come here (which was a lie, most people are cranky as eff until they get some food into them, and then they're all peachey). The woman was so nice, though, it made me feel better. I don't like when people yell like that because it makes me feel like I'm incompetent or something, but I know that I'm really not.
Also, my manager called two people stupid. I'm just waiting for her to tell me. I just want the excuse to put her in her place. But I have the feeling that she's scared of me. She won't look me in the eye, and avoided me for the first two hours I was at work tonight. I was okay with that though, because I'm pretty disgusted with her lately. There's also gambling in the work place. I'm pretty disgusted with that as well. I just don't know how to stop it. It's both of my managers. The only other person I could go to would be the owner. And he doesn't seem to want to be involved in the disputes at work. He's more of a non-confrontational kind of person. He just doesnt know when to act.
All I have to say is, I hope you never become these people.
One time, I was at the mall, and someone robbed the jewelry store that's beside Sears. The woman at the store chased the kid down and pinned the kid in the parking lot, and everyone just watched. I was still young at the time, but I was with someone who was older, and I wanted to go help, but I didn't know if I should and I hesitated. And the older person told me not to, that someone had it all under control, while he did nothing himself. But the kid got away, and broke the woman's hand, and I don't know if the kid got caught. I'm still mad that I just stood there, hearing the woman scream for help. I know I probably won't be in that situation again, and I hope that I don't have to, but at the same time, I hope that some day I will be and that I will make better choices. I wish I was a better person.
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I hate my job. I get in trouble for the most bogus things, mostly for other people's mistakes, like showing up late, or not doing their work. And the worst part? There's nothing I can do, and no one to talk to about it, and I'm completely stuck in this job. I need the money too much.
Harry Potter comes out soon. Everyone says Harry will die, and personally, I don't see how it could end without him dying, but I'm still holding out hope that he doesn't die. I don't know what I will do when it's done. It's really like my childhood has died. Then I will have to find other books to read. ... Probably text books. I'll have to learn html soon afterwards anyways so I can teach it.
I stepped on a needle tonight. I didn't think it was possibly for a needle to stick into your foot... but it somehow fell off the table and landed straight up on the carpet... and then when I stepped on it... welll... The eye of the needle was the part that went into my foot and I had to pull about half the needle out. I was disgusted, probably like you are for reading that. Bandaids don't stick to the bottom of the foot very well. I also have a blister on the back of my heel on the same foot.
I work tomorrow night and then I'm off for two days. I'm ready to not work. I can't believe I still have a month and a half. I feel bad for doing this, but I'm really trying to waste my summer away. It's lonely. I'm way too angry.
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Thursday, June 14th, 2007
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I'm so bored. During the school year, I kinda look forward to summer because I"m like, yay no school work! But that novelty wears off in about a week, and it's really only been a week since I've left Sackville. I'm going insane! I think I'd rather be alone in Sackville. Well, not that it's really alone, but there's nothing to do! Annnnd I'm going to miss residence.
I HATE the Palliser now. HATE. It's such a crappy place. I don't have seniority anymore. I ran into some old workers at a different restaurant and they're happy, and said I could join them if I wanted... I think I'll take them up on that offer. Anything would be better than the Palliser at this point. And two people left that restaurant to join our restaurant... so now every once in a while we lose a shift so that they can have a shift... and apparently they have terrible reputations... so that should be interesting. They didn't hire the person I wanted them to hire.
And other things are happening all over again, which make me just want to leave Truro right now.
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Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007
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So. I love my job. LOVE. And by my job, I mean the one I have in Sackville. We've been playing with lego... sitting and staring at walls and mostly getting paid to do a butload of nothing, which at first I thought was pointless, but Monday and yesterday we started one of the camps. There were a few girls who weren't that interested, one girl was too young, one girl asked questions like an exam... you know... the kind you have to think about for a few minutes before you can even interpret what it means... But then there was this girl. She had the cutest short hair. She was ten. She was absolutely, positively fascinated by everything and couldn't wait to learn more. Our presentations were a little boring but ... the history of computer science is a little boring, especially if you've grown never knowing what it was like when there weren't computers in every home, and internet wasn't really a big thing. But she was wide eyed and interested. Her mom emailed Laurie to tell her that she couldn't stop talking about it and how much she enjoyed it. The point of this camp was to get girls interested in computer science, or even science, and if she was the only girl that we influenced, I'd be okay with that. It made all the pointlessness that we have done worth it.
The Palliser, on the other hand... I hate. I'm so frustrated with being treated like I'm stupid, just because of my age. I don't want to be arrogant or cocky or rude, but I'm going to be more successful than anyone who is currently working there. Well, except the other two college students. I'd say the three of us will be the most successful. We're not irresponsible, we've always shown up for our shifts, which most of the older adults can't claim. I've also been there for five years. I know stuff. I know what happens, and I'm tired of being told I'm wrong. It makes it worse that Wanda isn't there because she can't come in later and back me up, because no one else has been there for more than three years. And they wonder why it's so hard to keep staff. They make so many bogus rules. And the worst part is that my parents are convinced that I couldn't find a job anywhere else. They always say, "You can do and be whatever you want in life". I want to be free of the Palliser and do something else for a summer job. But according to them, I will be hard pressed to find such a good paying job. The job isn't good paying, it's the tips the customers leave. They don't even want to give the kitchen staff a raise, so they are making us split our tips with them now. Which I don't mind, because I think they deserve it, but I think the motive is all wrong. And everything is so backwards. Two months is not too much notice. You can't have too much notice. In the real world, the more notice, the better. And I hate that this is consuming me! It's been almost two weeks and I could still rant about it for hours! So I will stop.
I'm in the house alone right now. Brian is in Germany fulfilling his particle acceleration dreams. It's pretty boring around here. I like the smell of the house though. It's ... comforting? It reminds me of my grandmother's house. Not that the thought of my grandmother is all that comforting, but something about how it was a farm... maybe that it was an escape. Either way, I walk into the house and I feel home... well. I'm just glad that I'm living with Ben and Brian.
So last post I think I mentioned that I was worried about getting mono. Funny story, the next day my dad called and said the hospital called and said I have mono. Brian and I both got it from seperate occasions. What a weird coincidence. Well, I'm assuming it was seperate occassions. Brian and I have certainly not made out, and I'm pretty sure we never shared drinks. I think it hit Brian worse than it hit me. I mean, I guess the throat thing is caused by mono, but that wasn't painful really, it was just a little harder to swallow and it was blocking my nasal passage so I couldn't breathe properly. His throat hurt, and he was so tired. I think, though, because he was going to bed so early, and that made me go to bed early, that I kind of avoided those symptoms. I know that you can get relapses and I'm worried what going back to waitressing full time will mean. I know that wears me out at the best of times. Last Saturday was the first time I slept in in about a month, and this Saturday I don't have to work until 11:30 so I can sleep in a bit again. I'm really excited.
I finished reading the 6th Harry Potter. I really need the 7th to come out. It's even longer than the fifth book, which is the longest one so far. Apparently Rowling has said that she enjoys the 7th one the most and is pleased with how it ends. I like that her writing style has improved, especially since the first book. It just gets more intense and intricate. I remember when I first started reading them and realized that I would be 20 when the last book came out and I was worried that I would lose interest and not care and not want to finish the books. I can't believe how silly I was. I'm addicted like crack.
I also haven't seen Lost in a while and the season finale was on tonight. I'm going to have to do a lot of catching up on alluc.org or something.
Annnnnnd I'm ending this novel and going to bed.
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I find I can see patterns really well. Numbers and words and random letters... pictures... I find I'm always looking for patterns. Maybe that's why I like Math. I dunno, it's just second nature to analyze something and rearrange it. It's all about the what ifs.
My house isn't fridgidly cold. But it could be because I'm wearing two pairs of pajamas. I'm probably going to bed soon. I don't think I've been to bed this early in a long time. And I get up early too. Well I've been going to bed before 11:00pm every night since I've been here... and getting up around 9:00pm.
I'm just getting over my crazy illness. My tonsils are no longer blocking my nasal passages so I'm excited to sleep tonight because I can close my mouth and won't wake up with this crazy dry mouth. God dry mouth is so weird... like... I mean... there is no moisture at all. Ugh... UGH!!!
Brian is sick. I took him to the hospital tonight and they called and told him he had mono. Bascally... that sucks. I had to get out new handtowels for me... new soap for me... I think I should hover or something too... I'm scared to get it... just because I don't want to have to waitress with it. It's such a high energy job... I've had other jobs, even other jobs dealing with the public and nothing tires you out like waitressing can... I love this Computer Science thing... it definitey doesn't tire me out at all. Oh god it's so great.
I hope I don't get mono.
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